Whilst doing some internal inventory this last year I discovered that I have a wee bit of a problem. I am only attracted to the wrong kind of men.
I've begun to make a list of the types I seem to gravitate towards. And the list has quickly filled with men possessing negative qualities definitely outnumbering the good. But I have this gift that helps me to see the good (or possibility of good) in all people no matter how hidden it is, which is a wonderful thing. Unless you're always finding yourself going for men that may or may never "rearrange their plans and change for you". If I'd known about this years ago I'd still never have let myself fall in love. (Don't misinterpret! I'd never go back, but the young naive me would run in the other direction if she knew what was ahead! And rightly so!).
But through some serious future analysis I hope to find and destroy the origins of my chronic weakness. We shall see. Someday I will be able to feel real true passionate feelings for someone capable of loving me like any human creature ought to be loved! :)
I've begun to make a list of the types I seem to gravitate towards. And the list has quickly filled with men possessing negative qualities definitely outnumbering the good. But I have this gift that helps me to see the good (or possibility of good) in all people no matter how hidden it is, which is a wonderful thing. Unless you're always finding yourself going for men that may or may never "rearrange their plans and change for you". If I'd known about this years ago I'd still never have let myself fall in love. (Don't misinterpret! I'd never go back, but the young naive me would run in the other direction if she knew what was ahead! And rightly so!).
But through some serious future analysis I hope to find and destroy the origins of my chronic weakness. We shall see. Someday I will be able to feel real true passionate feelings for someone capable of loving me like any human creature ought to be loved! :)
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