- I don't know what it is exactly but I've been feeling a little bit melancholy. Nostalgic maybe? Really feeling that things are shifting. Change always seems to make me a little bit sad. As good as I know it is. How wonderful it is to live in a world that's always moving and flowing! It's nearly impossible to truly feel stagnant, I think. You're always going backwards or forwards. Stepping sideways at least. How grateful I am for movement. And I definitely feel, these days, like I am headed in a positive progressive direction. So, good for me :)
- Also I had a really sweet telephone conversation with my dear distant friend Joanna today. We're always delving into the most rich and meaningful topics. One thing I love about really dear friends. We got to talking about how funny it is when you 'coincidentally' run into someone with a ridiculous amount of similar characteristics to an ex-love of your life and how funny God is for putting this person in your path. Like he's saying "this guy you loved was just another fish! do you know how many fish I made?!?". And how beautiful it is to find someone that you instantly have real, palpable, friendly AND romantic feelings for. Even if nothing ever comes of it. How it just leaves you feeling hopeful about the future. I love talking to Joanna because A. She's a wonderful person with endless adventures to share and B. We always get talking about the presence of God in all things. What happier things are there to talk about?
- Sometimes...(when i'm out and about) I get so excited about making friends and reaching out to people and then I go home and fall in love with my aloneness all over again and I lose all the ambition that I had just earlier that day to write all those letters and make phone calls and keep up with the lives of lots of people that I really do love and I sit in my room with my cat and my books and my ukulele and I feel at peace. So at peace that as far as I ever feel like going is just down the hall to have a lonely candle lit bath :) How easy it is to be alone.
- I read an article today about us overstimulated human beings losing the ability to do things like meditate and be still. About how we're subconsciously creating all of these cravings in our brains for constant electronic interaction. Which is interfering with our connection to the spiritual and making us less receptive to inspiration from God. Her cure was for us to immerse ourselves in the word of God and to write down any and all thoughts that come to you while doing so and then look back at previous notes to find patterns and themes within your notes to see what it is that God is trying to say to you. There are so many things popping up all over for me lately about how to learn to recognize God's voice. How to more efficiently receive personal revelation. too exciting.
Sourdough Bread Made From Sprouted Wheat.
My Dad Just Pulled It Out Of The Oven. Who Knew Food Could Exude So Much Divinity? I Did ;)
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