Pretend love

Yesturday was Valentines Day. 
& I tried to fake love.
Or at least went through some of the motions of love.
I'll just tell the story...
A friend and I decided to be in love for the day. Really, he just wanted to "walk down the Patchouli Road" and was being sneaky about his intentions. But I've never had a friend with which I had so little in common. We honestly disagree on everything. We did watch Stranger Than Fiction and we both liked it. So I guess we agree on one thing. And he's quite a bit of a scoundrel. Big surprise. I don't know why I always find boys like him interested in me. I'm sure it's nothing but the chase. And how often do they find a feline so elusive as me ;) ?
The whole experience just reaffirmed to me how incapable I am of "belittling the belongings of love". Truly. I try to admit to myself that all the romantic idealism in me has been sucked dry but I sometimes like to lie. Occasionally, that's how I know what's true :) I'm so terrible at lying (most of the time) that even when I'm not certain of the falseness I feel it after its been said. To myself. When I'm communicating with myself, that is. Communicating lies. Because all I really want to do is believe. Believe that Fox Mulder will show me the truth ;)...ok dweebus, i'm done with the story. But truly, we all want to believe that there's a thing such as real love and that it's something we can all be a part of.

AND FOR THE VALENTINE MIRACLE OF THE YEAR... I was joking with my earlier friend (see above) about how I was bound to fall in love with someone on valentines day, with Cupid roving around the land shooting poor mortals at random, so it might as well be with him. How silly I was to say such a thing. Cupid got to me far before I even saw my friend. It Happened at work. Love at first sight. And his name is Ben. But we'll come up with something else. We can call him Bean :) That's his name in my phone...because I possess his phone number. And his heart.

And THIS is what my drive home looks like. Jealous :)

I'd let them pretend love me ;)