None But Some Falling Rain.

I love my bed. So many pillows. So many blankets and quilts. An enormous stuffed dog. A real living cat friend.
The best place to be.
I could dream my whole life away in this mess of comfort and warmth.

Sometimes I become concerned that I am too excessive in my indulgence of daydreaming.
I've daydreamed quite a lot my whole life but maybe the most during my adult life.
My career nearly encourages it.
I spend hours and hours in a soft, hazily lit room. More often than not, in almost complete silence.
Most of what I do doesn't demand much mental focus or concentration. I do what I feel, let the spirit be my guide.
I had a client today tell me that daydreaming is a very powerful creative activity and she tries to set aside a piece of time for it weekly.
New Goal: use my endless daydreaming opportunities more for meditative connecting time with my Father in Heaven. In other words, pray always.

Yike.

Dating can be so...yikesie.
I let myself think too much. I ought to just feel my way through relationships. That's when I am the most true and comfortable. My mind complicates everything. I just want to figure men out. I want to know how deeply they are capable of feeling, what they love and are passionate about, what makes them laugh, exactly how they feel/think about me, how much they are willing to communicate, if they have anything valuable to teach me...too many things that distract me from whether or not I'm feeling something. Or are these things you should wish to know right off? Do they all matter or just some of them? Or none of them really, depending on who you are.
I spent the afternoon with my dearest bestie newly weds. And their love and friendship is the most pure and true and eternal and hilarious and equal. SO glad to have dears like them for examples of true love. BUT then I remember so many friends I have known who have married and unfortunately their love never has seemed so powerful nor their relationships so stable. Am I eager for something that doesn't exist for everyone or something I've already had and lost my chance at? I don't want to settle myself down just yet but there are so many questions and what ifs that come with the life of a single lonely creature like me ;) All I want is to be seen and really understood and loved a lot a lot. But alas, I am so good at hiding.

Camping!

I went camping this last weekend with the fam. It rained most of the time but we ate rich food, explored the "crick", played phase 10, taught my tiny sister to gamble...I read the bean trees by Barbara kingsolver. We hiked a muddy red mountain...I learned how to throw knives.

Where's my mountain?

Wildfires frightening :(

Healthy, Wealthy & Wise

It's 10:37am and I've already taken Tempe to get fixed, made and ate grits fried eggs and toast for breakfast, done my laundry, deep cleaned the bathroom, tidied my bedroom, resheeted my massage table, showered and eaten leftovers for second breakfast. My mind is blown. So this is why adults wake up early. I'm taking a nap.

Poor Tempster :( No Mo Babies for You.

Favorite Snuggle Friend :)

Hello.

Please be my friend without a secret agenda.

SO frustrated.

1st of May

"Things" are moving and events are coming. Because I am making them do so.

I feel really good about May. Ya, I really do, I think.
1st Day of May:
I started the Book of Mormon over again.
And I have some serious study ideas that I'm excited about.
I went to institute AND met with my bishop.
And I made dinner ;) it was delicious. 
I've decided that it's my life and it's now or never...because, you know, I ain't gonna live forever.
;) bahaha. But truly. I need to get my shiz together for realzies and make some things happen.
I love myself. and my ridiculousness. I can't even be serious.
I love Fionn. mostly his words and his skills. i don't know him as a human and thats just fine. i still feel love feelings for him and will be sending them his way neverendingly. in hopes that he will never stop doing things like this.